Last night I went out with a few friends. We went to a party that was similar to a high school reunion. I saw everyone from high school, the good, the bad, and the annoying. You must realize that I have not seen these people for almost four years. This is four years of joining the triathlon team, giving up binge drinking, and losing 60 lbs. The first thing that comes out of a certain boy's mouth, "holy cow your not fat anymore!" The thing is I was never "fat" I was just a husky swimmer... so kind of fat.. then his friends point out that I could be doing the finger down the throat thing. I was appalled! four years of kicking my own ass with vigorous workout routines to look good mentally and physically; and people think Im a copout. I did it for my self, and this is what the new years is about, loving my self and avoiding the things that drain me..
Soooo things that were draining in 2009...
- stress of passing physics
- self doubt-(not good enough)
- my brother not getting his dream job that they said he was a shoe in for
- face broken (very very sexy)
- trying to make everyone else happy ( I don't enjoy golf, I don't like the 'sport' at all)
- taking a Bible class and a cyberfiction class from the same teacher?
- best friends sleeping around with boyfriend
- crazy jealous people
- death
- my dog's ear infection
- losing a job
- divorce
- being called too ugly, too fat, too anything
- mood swings of family members
- moving back home into my parents basement
- bad snow tires
- being broke (everyone is ugggg)
- grandparents in hospital
- people who bring me down
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